Also, today was literally the first day ever that I have gotten changed/looked in the mirror and been genuinely happy with my body. I could focus on the negative and be sad that it’s taken 23 years to see that, but you know what - some people go their whole lives and never feel proud of the way that they look.
I’m proud of myself for joining a gym because exercise makes me feel happy, I’m proud of myself for eating healthier because it makes me realise how much I love to cook. If losing weight came as a result of that, I’m glad (it just wasn’t my aim).
I just watched a documentary about a beautiful musician & it just made me wonder how crazy it is that music means so much to people. One person standing by their convictions and expressing themselves creatively may seem trivial to some, but it’s powerful enough to change people’s lives.
I think that is beautiful and liberating!
Maybe I needed to watch that to not feel so alone in the things that I’m good at or want to pursue.
burnthemidnight asked: in case you couldn't tell, i really enjoyed the recent influx of pictures and photos! you're a beautiful lot. hope you're doing well.
Aw man, I appreciate it! I’m sorry I haven’t had a chance to speak to you and elina in so long! I got your awesome video but I can’t view it on my phone - I have to wait for shonzor to come home and watch it with her! You guys are so good :)
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?
As an experiment, I just made a dummy account, entered weight and height consistent with an extremely unhealthy BMI and stated that my goal was to reach an even unhealthier weight in a stupidly unhealthy space of time.
No disclaimers. No “perhaps you should first consult a doctor” provisions, no fucking “are you sure?” pages. Absolutely nothing.
Nope, just 1200.
Note that the average daily intake of Auschwitz prisoners was approximately 1300 calories a day.
These counters are evil. They espouse reductive and misleading conceptions of the very complicated (very individual) relationship between nutrition, weight, and health. Assigning a calorie ration to anyone who asks for it based on incredibly dubious “science” is so outrageously irresponsible.
I can’t even articulate how frustrating these things are.
And they’re addictive. And they know it.